Questio Pro Lux Lucis

Decision in Time April 6, 2009

“So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All you must decide is how to use the time that is given to you.”
         -Gandalf, Lord of the Rings-

This quotation is taken from the first LOTR novel. Just when Frodo starts to feel weary about the journey he have to go, he started whining and told Gandalf that he’s sick with the reality he’s in. and there Gandalf said that sentence. And there, Gandalf said something that is applicable for us.

The condition you’re in, the situation surrounds you, is something that you cannot change. The situation change accordingly to how other people act and how you act upon it. Thus, the flow itself cannot be stopped, however, controlable.

In some cases, third parties can have a significant effect to our condition. In my princeton essay (in which I discussed the same thing), I can picturized this third party effect well. Third parties can have a huge impact just with simple thing, for example, issues. False issues can ruin you in times when you are not ready to face them.

The dramatic change in condition is actually not the reason why we cannot control them. However, usually, we are stressed out by that dramatic change and take a quick step without judging the long-term effect in the future. Which then, bring chaos to our life.

The time itself is a limited. “The time that is given to you” is not the unlimited time to do something. The time has a limit which is also determined by the condition. Sadly, most of the time, we do not know the limitation of our time. We act rushly, in order to make evrything better, which then turn against us.

What is needed during times like this, is no more than wisdom. Wisdom to choose which right and wrong, to see the real condition from the most objective point of view. I once went through such problem and lost control on my act. How I wish to keep those wisdom in hands. The next thing that is also important is emotion control. Angry not too soon, happy not too quick, hold the emotion, look what’s behind the scene. Cause I don’t need to tell you, what happening behind truly determine the next scene.

And yes, it is ours to decide what we gonna do in the time that is given to us. How our future will be, what will we go through are determined by how we decide upon things surround us. Thus, kep the wisdom, decide well.

This is my essay, if you’re too curious…

It was my 11^th grade and I was a very busy student. I had the position as the head of the class and I was the member of SMAK 1 Cup Committee. In the same time, I must prepare myself for several upcoming competitions and Biology Science Olympiad. However, in those times, my friends kept cheering me up and we often teased each other, hang out to somewhere, or just gathered around.

 

Everything goes just like that until the day when we teased one of my friends with a girl. Somehow, I was attracted to the girl. Starting from that day, I tried to get myself close to her. It was a pleasing experience to be with her. She helped me studying the Biology Olympiad, she told me lot of interesting stories, gave me inspirations and encouragement. I always wonder if one day I can repay her kindness.

 

It was all went really fine until she asked me about girl that I liked. I will never forget that time. I could not lie, but I knew it was not the right time for me to say that I love her. Therefore, I gave her clues that leads to the answer that she was the one that I love. Just as my predictions, everything changes when she knew that she was the one that I love.

 

Horrible I would say. Our relationship changed dramatically. Even more, in the same time, fake news about her came to me, that she backstabbed me. It was actually silly news if I was in a normal situation. However, things went the other way, as I got so mad at her for that “backstabbing”. That anger made me once berated her without a clear reason. Strangely, she never argued; she only kept everything inside.

 

After six months of broken relationship, suddenly my mobile rang and I saw a text message from her, congratulating me for my birthday. My eyes were opened and I realize that it was fake news that I heard. It was a shock for me and I started a plan to apologize.

 

I was ready if she got angry with me. I knew I was wrong and reckless in taking decision. However, she just smiled and forgave me. I tried once again to please her, but things were not the same as before. The relationship would never return to how it used to be.

 

I regret time when I decided to do something that I knew that was not the time yet. However, I learn something here. I learn that it is all about how we used the moment, about how we do something on the right time. No matter what we do, no matter how well we planned it before, if the time has not come yet, we will get nothing good. All that we need to do is to decide how we use the time that is given to us.