Questio Pro Lux Lucis

Life in My Sight… March 27, 2009

After taking a huge amount of earth oxygen supply for 17 years and writing history for some peoples, here I start to think about the essence of life.

I won’t take this to deep, but I really just want to share about what life is in my opinion. I believe that this opinion and view of mine, already shaped me in such a way to see the world. This perspective probably the reason of all my action.

For me, I can picturize life as two kind of game.

1) Chess

For me life is just like chess. But this time, a very huge board chess with millions of players. In an 8×8 chess board, a single move can determine the end of the game. Same with the life we’re in.

Everybody want to make themselves as the leader of the board. Thus, they must eliminate others kings. We count our steps, we anticipate others movement and open ways for our own. We let people do what they want if they do not cross our importance. If they dare to go against ours, there shall be no mercy.

Maneuvers and tricks must be done. Play the words, play the mind, play the hands. A complex movement with combination of several troops can bring you to triumph.

Sacrifice oftenly needed. For a little winning, we must dare to put a big thing on risks. But of course, that little winning is not a mere wining, but a glorious path to victory. To sacrifice things that we like, things that we love, friends, partners, sometimes needed. I bet now you start to curse me, but that’s the fact. Psychology will name this, “out from your comfort zone”. There are lot of examples that people can rise when they left their friends. When they dropped the bomb on their partner.

And in order to be the winner, perfection is a must. How to count steps well, to predict every movement, to be the best in everything are the top priority.

2) Poker

Once I thaught it’s like monoploy, but then I choose poker. Poker is a famous card game that actually is really simple but very complex.

There are points that must be seen in this game.

• Cards : This is the most obvious thing that you must put your attention on. Your own cards. It is a double? It is prospective? Just as in your life. Is what you have right now useful? Is it not?
• Others’ cards : What card does your friend have? What card does your opponent have? Is it prospective? You’ll never know.
• The table’s cards : Does the card on the table support your card? Or support your opponent’s card? Does your surroundings help you to improve? Or they make other’s to improve?
• The bet : The steps of your opponents is crucial. Does they fold and let that round go? Or does they play the card and put the bet on it? Is it big or small?

This game really represent the life, I and you live in. You must know the situation you’re in and catious with what others have. To bluff is necessary, but stay cautious. To not be greedy, but to make others corrupted slowly till their death. To always stay calm and take everythings with smile, and stay sharp and deadly inside. To not express what you feel, but to deeply feel what others’ feel.

Know exactly when to take a rest and fold your card. As they say, do not be greedy. Know also exactly when to hold your cards, and but your bet and stay cautious. Isn’t that the essence of success?

People that always talking about love and mercy, never look at the real true world. People that live under the pressure will know this. Good man was killed, while Bad man praised. One that dropped bomb and kill millions is respected, while one that stay not sided and neutral is forgotten. That is the world we’re living in. 

I realized that, this kind of philosophy cannot be accepted by many people. But I see clearly, that the world I am living in, is not a paradise where people shares and do kindness. I’m living in an unfair world, where there’s always someone who will be kicked out. There’s always someone that perfectly healthy and someone that handicapped. Someone rich and someone poor. The rich want to be richer and the poor seldomly can fight.

Rather you agree or not, this is just my own perspective of life.  A controversial perspective as usual.